Anxiety

 It was March 2013 when I first started getting anxiety attacks. My ex wife was pregnant with our second child. Bit of back story, my parents didn’t agree with us being together or getting married. I told them about my first son and they didn’t want to meet him. So I decided not to talk to them about us being pregnant. A few weeks later I had my first anxiety attack. I was in a really bad way, not knowing what was happening to my body. I went to the doctor to get some blood tests. That was when insomnia started. I got some time off work so I could get some well needed help.

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